Fulfillment

I guess you could say God has blessed with some gifts, and some curses with one of them being my ability to become terrified in the "love" area. Many a men have passed through my life, and it's true when I say that they have broken my heart more times than I have broken anyone's heart.

A lot of them came and went. I'm sure more will continue to come into my life and continue to exit right out of it. Just a fair few stick in my mind now, as the ones I was so sure I was "in looooove" with are fading faster and faster.

As I sit here, window open, breeze gently blowing my hair into my face, one guy sticks in my mind. It never worked out because some things were never said, when maybe they should have been. What would have happened if I was, for once, honest with myself and with him? What would our friendship be like today? So many "what ifs". So many what could have happened what would have happened where would I be today.

None of that matters now, but sometimes it is nice to wonder.





I will say that I did get fulfillment this year, after all this time.